The Sand Map
I am looking for the places
that were there before the sand.
What is strange about this country,
sphinxes and pyramids on a duny plain,
is what emerges from the hidden.
Once they looked ordinary in their real setting,
not desert, but a green,
a populated world,
and now covered by sand
its peaks are hints
we try to make sense of,
imagining we long for it.
We long for something all right
and dream of finding a sand map to lead us there
hoping that under the desert is where it is.
If not that, what are we longing for?
What lost world? But what if
it is for something new, not old,
the not-yet-born?
And even with a sand map, an accurate one,
say you follow it, trustingly,
and discovered that buried world
with its glories, and horrors,
then what do you have?
Even knowing what was there,
following a program of limited excavation
won’t bring it back,
won’t make sands that cover it blow away,
make those figures on friezes come to life,
and the cataclysmic scenes replay.
For after you have found it,
after all that searching and working,
you’ll have to look at your life and see
that nothing has changed—
so, having dealt with the past as best you could
you might declare it is better
to know than not to know,
but having used up the best of your strength,
weary now, you must live with what you are,
and even if it is desert, where you are,
making the best of it.