James Tate




Intimidations of an Autobiography

I am walking a trail
on a friend’s farm
about three miles from

town. I arrange the day
for you. I stop and say,
you would not believe how happy

I was as a child,
to some logs. Blustery wind
puts tumbleweed

in my face as I am
pretending to be on my way
home to see you and

the family again,
to touch the orange
fingers of the moon.

That’s how I think of it.
The years flipped back last night
and I drank hot rum till

dawn.
It was a wild success and I wasn’t sad when
I woke past noon

and saw the starlings in the sky.
My brain’s an old rag anyway,
but I’ve got a woman and you’d say

she’s too good for me. You’d call
her a real doll and me a goof-ball.
I’ve got my head between my paws

because it’s having a damn
birthday party. How old do you think I am?
I bet you think I’m

seventeen.
It doesn’t matter. Just between
us, you know what I’m doing

now? I’m calling the cows home.
They’re coming, too.
I lower

myself to the ground lazily,
a shower of avuncular kisses
issuing from my hands and lips—

I just wanted to tell you
I remember you even now;
Goodbye, goodbye. Here come the cows.