To the Muse
I have heard it said,
and by a wise man,
that you are not one who comes and goes
but having chosen
you remain in your human house,
and walk
in its garden for air and the delights
of weather and seasons.
Who builds
a good fire in his hearth
shall find you at it
with shining eyes and a ready tongue.
Who shares
even water and dry bread with you
will not eat without joy
and wife or husband
who does not lock the door of the marriage
against you, finds you
not as unwelcome third in the room, but as
the light of the moon on flesh and hair.
He told me, that wise man,
that when it seemed the house was
empty of you,
the fire crackling for no one,
the bread hard to swallow in solitude,
the garden a tedious maze,
you were not gone away
but hiding yourself in secret rooms.
The house is no cottage, it seems,
it has stairways, corridors, cellars,
a tower perhaps,
unknown to the host.
The host, the housekeeper, it is
who fails you. He had forgotten
to make room for you at the hearth
or set a place for you at the table
or leave the doors unlocked for you.
Noticing you are not there
(when did he last see you?)
he cries out you are faithless,
have failed him,
writes you stormy letters demanding your return
it is intolerable
to maintain this great barracks without your presence,
it is too big, it is too small, the walls
menace him, the fire smokes
and gives off no heat. But to what address
can he mail the letters?
And all the while
you are indwelling,
a gold ring lost in the house.
A gold ring lost in the house.
You are in the house!
Then what to do to find the room where you are?
Deep cave of obsidian glowing with red, with green,
with black light,
high room in the lost tower where you sit spinning.
crack in the floor where the gold ring
waits to be found?
No more rage but a calm face,
trim the fire, lay the table, find some
flowers for it: is that the way?
Be ready with quick sight to catch
a gleam between the floorboards,
there, where he had looked
a thousand times and seen nothing?
Light of the house,
the wise man spoke
words of comfort. You are near,
perhaps you are sleeping and don’t hear.
Not even a wise man
can say, do thus and thus, that presence
will be restored.
Perhaps
a becoming aware a door is swinging, as if
someone had passed through the room a moment ago—perhaps
looking down, the sight
of the ring back on its finger?