If this is Wednesday, write Lazartigues, return library books, 
pick up passport form, cancel the paper.

If this is Wednesday, mail B her flyers and K her shirts. Last
thing I asked as I walked K to her car, “You sure you have
everything?” “Oh yes,” she smiled as she squalled off. Whole
wardrobe in front closet.

Go to Morrison’s for paint samples, that’s where
housepainter has account (near Pier One), swing by Gano St.
for another bunch of hydroponic lettuce. Stop at cleaners if
there’s parking.

Pap smear at 4. After last month with B’s ear infections, can’t
bear sitting in damn doctor’s office. Never a magazine or
picture on the wall worth looking at. Pack a book.

Ever since B born, nothing comes clear. My mind like a
mirror that’s been in a fire. Does this happen to others.

If this is Wednesday, meet Moss at the house at noon. Pick B
up first, call sitter about Friday evening. If she prefers, can
bring B to her (hope she keeps the apartment warmer this year).

Need coat hooks and picture hangers for office. Should take
car in for air filter, oil change. F said one of back tires low.
Don’t forget car payment, late last two months in a row.

If this is Wednesday, there’s a demo on the green at 11. Took
B to his first down at Quonset Point in August. Blue skies.
Boston collective provided good grub for all. Long column of 
denims and flannel shirts. Smell of patchouli made me so 
wistful, wanted to buy a woodstove. Prop my feet up, share a J
and a pot of Constant Comment with a friend. Maybe some
zucchini bread.

Meet with honors students from 1 to 4. At the community
college I tried to incite them to poetry. Convince them this line
of work, beat the bejesus out of a gig as gizzard splitter at the
processing plant or cleaning up after a leak at the germ warfare
center. Be all you can be, wrap a rubber band around your
trigger finger till it drops off

Swim at 10:00 before picking up B, before demo on the
green and before meeting Moss, if it isn’t too crowded. Only
three old women talking about their daughters-in-law last
Wednesday at 10:00.

Phone hardware to see if radon test arrived

Keep an eye out for new yellow blanket. Left B’s on the
plane, though he seems over it already. Left most recent issue of
Z on the seat. That will make a few business men boil. I liked the
man who sat next to me, he was sweet to B. Hated flying, said
he never let all of his weight down.

Need to get books in the mail today. Make time pass in the line at
the PO imagining man in front of me butt naked. Fellow in the
good-preacher-blue suit, probably has a cold, hard bottom.

Call N for green tomato recipe. Have to get used to the
Yankee growing season. If this is Wednesday, N goes in hospital
today. Find out how long after marrow transplant before can visit.

Mother said she read in paper that Pete was granted a divorce.
His third. My highschool boyfriend. Meanest thing I could have
done, I did to him, returning a long-saved-for engagement
ring in a Band-Aid box, while he was stationed in Da Nang.

Meant to tell F this morning about dream of eating
grasshoppers, fried but happy. Our love a difficult instrument
we are learning to play. Practice, practice.

No matter where I call home anymore, feel like a boat under
The trees. Living is strange.

This week only: bargain on laid paper at East Side
Copy Shop.

Woman picking her nose at the stoplight. Shouldn’t look,
only privacy we have anymore in the car, Isn’t that the woman
from the colloquium last fall, who told me she was a stand-up
environmentalist. What a wonderful trade, I said, because the
evidence of planetary wrongdoing is overwhelming. Because
because because of the horrible things we do.

If this is Wednesday, meet F at Health Department at 10:45
For AIDS test
If this is Wednesday, it’s trash night.