If I knew I would be dead by this time next year
I believe I would spend the months from now till then
writing thank-you notes to strangers and acquaintances,

telling them, “You really were a great travel agent,”
or “I never got the taste of your kisses out of my mouth.”
or “Watching you walk across the room was part of my destination.”

It would be the equivalent, I think,
of leaving a chocolate wrapped in shiny foil
on the pillow of a guest in a nice hotel–

“Hotel of earth, where we resided for some years together,”
I start to say, before I realize it is a terrible cliche, and stop,
and then go on, forgiving myself in a mere split second

because now that I’m dying, I just go
forward like water, flowing around obstacles
and second thoughts, not getting snagged, just continuing

with my long list of thank-yous,
which seems to naturally expand 
to include sunlight and wind,

and the aspen trees which seethe and shimmer in the yard
as if grateful for being soaked last night
by the irrigation system 

invented by an individual
to whom I am quietly grateful.
Outside it is autumn, the philosophical season,

when cold air sharpens the intellect;
the hills are red and copper in their shaggy majesty.
The clouds blow overhead, like governments and years.

It took me a long time to understand the phrase “distant regard,”
but I am grateful for it now,
and I am grateful for my heart,

that turned out to be good, after all;
and grateful for my mind,
to which, in retrospect, I can see

I have never been sufficiently kind.