Missing Beatrice
(For B.H., 1944-1985)
Goodness was
a fever in you. Anyone
might glow in the heat of it,
go home comforted—
for them a shawl, for you
fire at the bone.
.
You knew
more than was good for you.
Your innocence
Was peat-bog water, subtle and dark,
that cold it was,
that pure.
.
Kindness—didn’t we act as though
we could cut an endless supply from you
like turf from a bog?
.
Smoke of that empty hearth
fragrant still.
Your words
cupped in our hands to drink.
But you—
you’re gone and we never
really saw you.