Autobiography: Hollywood
XVIII
The flies are
flying about
and about
the middle of the room—
jerkily
in geometrical figures;
what are they trying to prove—
my guardian angels?
I have said good morning to the man at the door,
good morning to the man polishing the stairs.
Seated in my arm-chair,
on a cushion,
I, the shepherd, stare at my flock—
ten flies.
I came penniless
and found only a few,
never bothered my head about them,
did not pay them,
neither gave them to eat or to drink,
nor even spoke to them,
and, look!
I shall cross the Jordan with at least twelve flies,
maybe, twelve times twelve:
how unworthy am I
of all this generosity!
I have become poor, it seems:
my flies are gone—except one
flying jerkily
about the room.
You do not buzz, my fly:
deep in thought, no doubt.
That is well.
I, too, am learning how to be silent,
and have learned long ago,
how to be alone.