Nikki Giovanni




Habits

I haven't written a poem in so long 
I may have forgotten how 
unless writing a poem 
is like riding a bike 
or swimming upstream 
or loving you 
it may be a habit that once aquired 
is never lost

but you say i'm foolish 
of course you love me 
but being loved of course 
is not the same as being loved because 
or being loved despite 
or being loved


if you love me why 
do i feel so lonely 
and why do i always wake up alone 
and why am i practicing 
not having you to love 
i never loved you that way